Here it is again. This experience that comes in once I am on track and fully aligned with my work… Something is coming in to sabotage me.
This experience that can take one down to the ground. A drop in my torso, the wobble and sudden unrootedness that I feel — this is the experience that someone named anxiety and created pills for.
I know now that it is nothing to be afraid of. It something good. I understand the patterns and am prepared… So I let it fill me.
It encases my torso. I let it grow and expand. I know not to be scared for I know that this feeling is me. Breathe in, breathe out.
This is my gift and what I am here for.
The feeling raises and is now around my neck area. So strong, I could throw up right now. I know not to fear. I know not to shut it down. It’s just me. That is all it is. Instead, I plant my feet on the ground; breathe in, breathe out. I open my mouth loud, look up to the open skies and let that beauty float out and colour up the world all around me.
I have let it out.
I’m okay now. Calm. Flowing. Back to work.
Ensure you have your support networks in place for managing anxiety. Take care of yourself and seek professional or medical intervention and/or guidance as required.